This song is released as a single and belongs to a bigger album (TRIED2 GROW UP 2FAST). It's a remix of Adult Patch by MASA WORKS DESIGN and before you think something, I know the original song is real weird. I preferred to interpret the song as an adult who has an unfortunately young appearance (similar to a situation I'm having, I'm often mistaken as 13 or younger in person despite me being 17) regardless of what Masa originally intended. I think the song sounds good, but I won't support it. I've struggled with something on the same topic of the song before, and I will tell my story now.
In this remixed song I made, it's more personal and I made the meaning different. I once knew someone. I've known them since I was around 8 years old, meaning he was practically my childhood friend. He introduced me to his friend when I was 11, and that friend turned into my fan. I used to think they were around my age but I discovered they were both 3 years older than me only a few years ago, meaning I've been lied to for like 7 years of knowing them. If I were still friends with them now, I would've known them for 10 years.
My childhood friend was teaching me disturbing things since we first started knowing each other, and it felt right because I thought he was truthful. 2 years later, he began to date me online and wanted me to grow up quickly and be more like an adult. I was trying my best. He told me that if I were more like an adult, I would be more lovable, and he would help me be more like an adult. Then he made me erotically online roleplay with adults and dragged some of my poor fans into it and I feel horrible about it. Sometimes I still want to die at the thought of other people being dragged into his shit, especially other kids, and I want to kill him. It doesn't even help at all that while we were all RPing, the others never aged me up and I was really just RPing as my real 11 year old self. He would also traumatize me of inappropriately drawn images of Spongebob characters because I was hyperfixated on him and snuck Cristali's (infamous pedophile in the animation meme community) content into my videos. I used to have profile pictures of Minus8 art and had a whole NSFW Discord server because of him. He said it was mature to be inappropriate.
Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself. This wasn't the point. Anyway, he wanted me to act more adult-like and womanly while I was still barely not even a teenager yet, and his solution was to constantly expose me to dangerous situations and sexualize me. At the same time, he was teaching me DDLG stuff and called me a rori, which was confusing, and I don't even want to explain what any of that is because it's disturbing and gross.
I don't even want to talk about this anymore. I was going to say more about his friend he introduced me to but I don't want to think about anything..
Anyway, here is the full album list I've been planning:
New Album Tracklist 2
POPPING SALTY SEA GRAPES IN MY MOUTH
- CHOCOLATE SODA AND A CHERRY ON TOP
- SILLY PART OF GROWING UP
- NANANA SODA POP RIN
- ARTISTS WILL SAMPLE ANYTHING MAN
- APPLE YABLOKO RINGO MANSANA
- PLEASE BUY ME A CANDY RING
- TRIED2 GROW UP 2FAST
- ART THAT NO ONE WILL EVER TRY TO SEE
- ROTTING CHEESECAKE MILKSHAKE
- OPENING EYES IN THE SALTY SEAWATER
- MY BRAIN CONTAINS EVERYTHING
- EATING STRAIGHT SODIUM
- I'm Not 12 Anymore
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