hikikomori together ♡

 

Art Trade I Did W/ MoeMoeManiac!

 

This is their OC I animated! It was so cute! In exchange, they drew me TEK-KO! I don't know if I'm allowed to show their art, but I'll just keep it to myself for now. I'm very happy. This is my first time doing an art trade with a stranger and it was so fun! :DDDDD

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Version with a random song I picked.

Version with a song they recommended after showing them the song I wasn't sure about previously.

Cover For Another Song

 

This song is released as a single and belongs to a bigger album (TRIED2 GROW UP 2FAST). It's a remix of Adult Patch by MASA WORKS DESIGN and before you think something, I know the original song is real weird. I preferred to interpret the song as an adult who has an unfortunately young appearance (similar to a situation I'm having, I'm often mistaken as 13 or younger in person despite me being 17) regardless of what Masa originally intended. I think the song sounds good, but I won't support it. I've struggled with something on the same topic of the song before, and I will tell my story now.

In this remixed song I made, it's more personal and I made the meaning different. I once knew someone. I've known them since I was around 8 years old, meaning he was practically my childhood friend. He introduced me to his friend when I was 11, and that friend turned into my fan. I used to think they were around my age but I discovered they were both 3 years older than me only a few years ago, meaning I've been lied to for like 7 years of knowing them. If I were still friends with them now, I would've known them for 10 years.

My childhood friend was teaching me disturbing things since we first started knowing each other, and it felt right because I thought he was truthful. 2 years later, he began to date me online and wanted me to grow up quickly and be more like an adult. I was trying my best. He told me that if I were more like an adult, I would be more lovable, and he would help me be more like an adult. Then he made me erotically online roleplay with adults and dragged some of my poor fans into it and I feel horrible about it. Sometimes I still want to die at the thought of other people being dragged into his shit, especially other kids, and I want to kill him. It doesn't even help at all that while we were all RPing, the others never aged me up and I was really just RPing as my real 11 year old self. He would also traumatize me of inappropriately drawn images of Spongebob characters because I was hyperfixated on him and snuck Cristali's (infamous pedophile in the animation meme community) content into my videos. I used to have profile pictures of Minus8 art and had a whole NSFW Discord server because of him. He said it was mature to be inappropriate.

Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself. This wasn't the point. Anyway, he wanted me to act more adult-like and womanly while I was still barely not even a teenager yet, and his solution was to constantly expose me to dangerous situations and sexualize me. At the same time, he was teaching me DDLG stuff and called me a rori, which was confusing, and I don't even want to explain what any of that is because it's disturbing and gross.

I don't even want to talk about this anymore. I was going to say more about his friend he introduced me to but I don't want to think about anything.. 

Anyway, here is the full album list I've been planning:

New Album Tracklist 2

POPPING SALTY SEA GRAPES IN MY MOUTH

1. CHOCOLATE SODA AND A CHERRY ON TOP
2. SILLY PART OF GROWING UP
3. NANANA SODA POP RIN
4. ARTISTS WILL SAMPLE ANYTHING MAN
5. APPLE YABLOKO RINGO MANSANA
6. PLEASE BUY ME A CANDY RING
7. TRIED2 GROW UP 2FAST
8. ART THAT NO ONE WILL EVER TRY TO SEE
9. ROTTING CHEESECAKE MILKSHAKE
10. OPENING EYES IN THE SALTY SEAWATER
11. MY BRAIN CONTAINS EVERYTHING
12. EATING STRAIGHT SODIUM
13. I'm Not 12 Anymore

nue houjuu

i like her (i forgot the snake in the animation version sorry)

kyouko kasodani blush

 

nice

current WIP for something

 

i think i'm just gonna scrap it... this is me in real life and then kia and drik. i was gonna draw everyone else but i'm getting tired of this.

gift for my cool online friend

 

they are noel and annabel from träumerei ♡

roomie

 

he sold the other bed

gakuran kun yume 2kki

 

i love your wonderful color palette 

darla vengeance on drik

 

i did it so quick everything looks so disproportionate fuck you

PRANK WARZ

 

supercute... REMEMBER! they're just best buddies. ♡

yuyuko fried chciken

 

idk i just got hungry

randy & anon look alike

 

trying something a little different.... heeeh... i LOVE IT

kisume done

 

random fun fact while we're here

this is the original tracklist for "stay in my world" album

New Album Tracklist

1. 悦びの国へようこそ (Welcome To Our Region of Joy)
2. 二ツ (2ND)
3. 馬鹿馬鹿です！！！！ (Stupid And Ridiculous!!!!)
4. チェリーパイとチーズケーキ (Cherry Pie & Cheesecake)
5. ファンキー・ファニー・ラブ (Funky Funny Love)

ididnt know wtf i was doing and i scrapped some of it bc i wanted it to be something else

kisume

 

damn is 🎉😂

y is this causing so lag :'/

sir splodge-a-lot

 

got bored and tried to draw humanized fuggler... very interesting but seems 

i hate ero thought

 

am such a loser

Len_Kagamine_Coffee_Beans

 

this is true

Sakasa Done

 I am finally done with the song's MV...

https://youtu.be/4oLLoolQk_8?si=hNjgafZMZjXwL-Q5

what am i doing this for please end my suffering oh my god why am i still trying it's not even that great please please please please why why why why why this sucks everything sucks why are my eyes built to put down my own creations and why is my own heart so unaccepting of everything i do please leave me alone i just want my dream pals i want to be with them forever i wanted to draw them instead i love them why did THIS STUPID BULLSHIT TAKE 4 MONTHS TO MAKE CANT I GO ANY FASTER WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

sakasa progress2

originally, it was all gonna be in japanese, but i could've just put it all in english to make things easier for myself so i'm changing it.

OKUU ☆ utsuho reiuji

 

i keep forgetting to upload this one too but yeah just pretend i posted it on the same day as the okuu & dorothy art

Rodrick Adams Throughout The Years

 helloooooo, today i am showing my art of my best pal drik over the years!! i think i have a little crush... maybe...

from 2020 when we hated him... he was something else before but thankfully we managed to cure him. now he's just a fly white guy 😎 also this might be my first ever drawing of him i forgot because one of my exes kept all my old diaries and probably burned them or something idk

this is a little jump, but it's from 2022, he's starting to look a little more like himself but i wasn't that skilled yet, plus i hated coloring traditionally!! it used to stress me out and it was so difficult but that's only because i was in a very pressure art class, but now i'm in AP art so i'm doing a little better now...

here's the full art. hey look randy's there being chased by a turkey! how fitting for this month LOL i'm pretty sure i drew this for thanksgiving too!

bonus image, this was the sketch and it made me mad because drik's hair was messed up and it looked nothing like him!! but thankfully i figured out how to fix it.

o wonderful, concept art from 2023 of a little animation i was gonna do. i never finished it, but this is all it was anyway:

here comes 2024... uh this one is fine if you don't look at his legs, i didn't realize how spaced out they are.... ahh

ok still 2024! i really locked in for this one... he's so... gorgeous here! really proud of myself for making him look that great. i mean I most certainly enjoy how he looks here...

don't really care what others think of it... heheh...

here are two images of him i did for a school poster in 2024 too, different styles. it's him and his old love interest, trixie, too bad he's kinda into a lot of women...

here he is this year... heh... hehe.. amazing.... i did amazing.... i tried my best......... YES. He is yes. I admire him even if he is always pranking me.

He was supposed to look more like this but it's fine. I couldn't replicate that smug little face of his again sadly but eventually I can... he's.... he is.

and that's all the progress i can find. he really had a glow up.... yum.

OKUU & DOT

 

drik epicness

 

he's so freakin awesome please

kekekeke 2021 or around there was randy obsession then i have one on drik now I LOVE MY FRIENDS I'M SORRY they're just so awesomesauce

kagamine len journal art

 

i got bored in art class because there was a sub

nick and randy tests

 

the second versions are literally perfect please